湾湾的青乌林

Dear Wanwan,

I am just too excited to sleep. The problem that has stopped me from being me for severalmonths is finally clear now. Oh my God! Too relieved that I have to get up now and write part of it out so as to clam myself down. Now Iunderstand why I was so frustrated and I understand how I should deal with it. I see my way. I see it! 

I was already thinking about writing an articlethat revisions the past few years of my life and points out the new direction. I am so excited thinking about all that I can barely fall asleep. 

I’m a mad man now. 

I was frustrated about trying to be an intellectual. But it turns out that an intellectual can bedefined in multiple ways. I can still try to be one of them. I just need to find a proper perspective. 

I was frustrated by politics. Now I see my limits. I’ll rebuild my way according to my passion and heart. 

一艘没有方向的船，任何一个方向的风都会成为它的阻力。

This sentence has occupied my mind for these several months and drived me crazy. I was so afraid of failures and I was terrified of the idea that I may just waste my life day by day without a purpose. I’m glad the new day finally come. 

The politicized depression, now it’s time to personalize my life. I’ll strive for what I aim for. 

Thank you for trying. Thank you for keeping thinking. Thank you for being alive. Thank you for your stupidity and stubbornness. 

I love you and always support you.

Best,

Worm of Summer

夏虫